Let's Celebrate!

I realize that I am addicted to goal-setting and list making (ie the whole premise for this blog) but it makes be happy so I'm doing it again. :D

28 Ways to Celebrate my 28th Year

I just celebrated my 27th Birthday. Crazy. I feel younger and more inexperienced than I did when I was 17. (Side note: Isn't that the glorious thing about being a teenager though. You think you know everything. It just goes downhill from there.)

One of the biggest downfalls of depression is that all the things you used to love no longer hold any interest for you. It is definitely counter-productive to the recovery process since then you won't do those things that make you happy. And then, yet another major problem is being to scared to try anything anyway. So to honor this new year I'm going to make a conscious effort to do some of those things that make me happy along with a couple of things I've been meaning to try/do. (Some of these coincide with my 100 Things list.)

Here's my list: 

Make a new friend

Visit a new place Boston & Maine

Throw a party I tried. The Babies' First Birthday. Unfortunately I came down with the flu but I'm counting because we had all the food and decor and it was going to be darling!)

Finish a crossword puzzle 

(seriously! I have yet to do this in my life.)

Go on a hike Ensign Peak (silly, but I'm counting it!)

Bake bread

Grow a plant Our first attempt at a Garden

Design a...

(not sure what that is going to be yet)

Buy a bike

Sew something

Try a new restaurant  Tony Caputos

Ride a horse

Take a class Oil Painting

Go to the library check, check, check

Run a 5K Provo City 5K

Send a letter To Brother Hyde

Take the GRE

Call-a-friend challenge

Grain challenge

Vegetable challenge

(All three challenges will be explained later)

Take a family name to the temple

(Find one first...)

Learn to swim

Write in my journal Finally! I'm doing it!

Do a photo shoot Blackham Wedding

Paint a picture Lake Sunset, Field Sunrise, Tetons

Go snowboarding

Go longboarding

Conquer a fear

Ready? Go!

Hello Again...

I know, I know... I have been MIA from this blog. Well... and from life. But its time to find it again... and me.

Warning- there is personal, mushy, gushy stuff ahead.

But we are all friends here, right?

Here we go...

I feel like I am a whole new person than the one I was before October 4, 2013. (Besides the obvious mom brain, sleep-deprived zombie...) I have a lot more anxiety and depression in my life. Basically, I'm an emotional basket case. Now, this isn't new. I've been a basket case for a long time. But the basket happens to be bigger. And heavier. And uglier.

I have struggled with clinical depression and anxiety for several years now. (If I'm being honest... my whole life.) But with postpartum hormones I feel I have been thrown to the wolves.

Here's the deal though... my first post back isn't going to be dwelling on this dark truth.

It's really about finding and creating happiness again.

Because, really... life is to good to waste time being miserable.

So I'm putting this blog back into my employ. It helped me before and I believe it can help me again. While I'm at it I'm laying out this disclaimer... I'm a private person and tend to feel anxious putting my thoughts out there (esp. a public forum like this). But I also believe we are in this life to help each other. So if this blog is in anyway helpful, inspiring, or encouraging to others then I'm going to continue to use it.  But I'll probably get personal. And I'll probably fret about using the right grammar (oh the ironies). And it will probably be harder than it should be to post something. BUT... I'm going to do it. And I'm not going to worry about it. Ok? Ok.